I am reading "More ready than you realize". The discussions are structured around the email conversation between the author and a spiritual seeker. The spiritual seeker is a lady who is seeking the one who created everything but isnt a believer yet. I am amazed at how motivated she is to seek .
As I was reading, I felt guilty for being quite defensive.. I do have this "win-lose" mentality when I "discuss"/"argue" with ppl... but JC was big on conversation and questions, it was never about "winning the debate". it was about inspiring ppl with more questions and not answering questions that's not framed in an acceptable/accurate/wise way...
Thinking about myself... I wonder if I am a spiritual seeker like her... do I spend time thinking and talking about things that really matters? coz ppl do want talks about mortality coping/struggle with guilt and goodness.. am i ready to talk about these topics with ppl? what do i reall think about thing that really matters? or do i simply have the "sunday school" answers?? and just take the answers as my own without really thinking?? may be i am having difficulty talking to ppl coz i dont really think about these big topics........
i am not sure if i am very accepting to those who isnt part of the Family yet... may be i am quite proud of my "daughter" identity that i look down on those without the identity... which is so so so bad coz JC used to scold at those ppl who are prideful of their superior identity.....><
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